Unleavable

I don’t rush the answer
I already know
Some doors stay open
Even when you go

I see the pattern
Before it starts
How quiet turns
Into habit

You say it lightly
Like it won’t land
I hear the weight
In what you don’t say

I’ve walked this line
Enough to tell
Which parts of it
I know too well

It’s not that I can’t leave
I’ve done that before
It’s knowing what I carry
Walking out the door

It’s not that I need this
Or need you to stay
It’s knowing what it costs
Either way

There’s a moment
Right after the truth
Where everything waits
To see what you’ll do

I don’t argue
I don’t plead
I just stand there
Counting the weeks

I don’t confuse
The pull with fate
I just know
What I can take

It’s not that I can’t leave
I’ve done that before
It’s knowing what I carry
Walking out the door

It’s not that I need this
Or need you to stay
It’s knowing what it costs
Either way

I don’t fall
I don’t stay blind
I just weigh
The shape of time

It’s not that I can’t leave
I still could
I just know
What leaving would

I know